roys-memories

我心很煩。。。。

2008-12-11T07:56:00.000-08:00

我今天，得生活很無趣。。。整天都呆在家根本什麽都沒做。哎，我這樣做是否對我身體有所傷害？跟苦惱的是我不知如何去面對我會擁有的壓力。我媽媽對我的期望，不知明年學業會不會一落千丈呢？前幾天，我舅舅問我明年的假期，我要到哪裏去？澳洲？英國？還是美國？昨天，政府的人來我傢來查看我傢是不是有什麽東西不見或有什麽新的東西。我爸謙應行的錢爲什麽要拖累我媽下水呢？不知這樣，我爸還在外面有別的女人，我媽到底做了些什麽到要過得那麽淒慘。。。。。我真的不明白爲什麽一個男人有了老婆還要有多一個？這些男人應該得到原諒嗎？對我，以一個孩子的看法，我覺得分手會是一件好事。如果我媽心硬一點和我爸離婚，我覺得這些的一切不會帶給我任何困擾。反而我會覺得這可能是一種解脫。對我而言，我覺得又沒有爸爸沒什麽分別。如果我媽媽跟我爸爸離了婚是不是會生活的根開心？我爸爸背叛了我的媽媽，還到我媽戀家都不想會。陵園在公司的房間睡。我又實在想，是不是如果我爸沒有別的女人我媽媽是不是不會傷心的患有乳癌。還讓我媽媽要過這提心吊膽的日子嗎？害怕在這５年可能會再次再復發。在我媽最黑暗的日子裏，我根本不能感覺到我爸對我馬的關心。我這一生最討厭的就是人家一直逼迫別人不想做的事。我永遠記得那一天，我媽痛得很厲害說什麽都不肯打針。我真的搞不懂爲什麽我爸和舅舅偏要我媽做一些它不想做的事。身為一的丈夫，應該讓他的妻子掉眼淚嗎？跟搞不懂的，爲什麽我媽要幫我爸換債，雖然夫妻之間應該有福同享有難同黨。但是我爸有副的時候根本沒有和我媽分享爲什麽有難的時候，要同享呢？人易人的信任是呢麽不依靠的嗎？連跟你走過人生的大半輩子都會背叛你那麽朋友還能信任嗎？愛真的可以包容一切嗎？連一個你恨愛的人背叛你，愛真的可以包容一切？爲什麽，我媽到現在都還沒和我爸離婚？這能代表我媽已經原諒我爸了嗎？還是我媽對一些事還不能放下？？我又是不是應該恨我爸呢？should people forgive and forget ?　

December holidays

2008-11-02T11:18:00.000-08:00

On the 28 of November, my tuition teacher brought all the secondary students out to celebrate the day that we have finished all our exams. On that day, supposing that i was supposed to be late, i was surprised to see that i was the second to be at yishun mrt. After all of us have gathered together, my tuition teacher counted how many heads were there. All of us went to take the mrt that would be heading to city hall. During the journey, our tuition teacher was talking to some of her former students before. When we reached city hall we were told to wait for another 15 minutes for another 2 students to come, one from parsiris and the other from woodlance. And i made a new friend from sec 3 in wood grove secondary school. His name was Arron and he claimed that he knew some of the students in my school. I was surprised to know that he actually knew Ernest and some other people during obs..... after a final head count, it is confirmed that there were a total of 30 people! Seriously, i have to say that my tuition teacher is very capable as it is not easy to prepare a party like for 30 outside like to look for restaurant, plan other activities, etc.
we all headed off to the esplanade we had to take many different escalator to reach a restaurant named sour puss. The food was simply delicious and it was located near the sea side. From what i know, the food is very expensive and a drink could easily cost up to 5 bucks even though it sells only 2 dollars at 7-11. All of us sat down at the restaurant and talked. Then my tuition teacher told us that we will be taking a cruise to know more about the Singapore river . Then she said all of us better remember what the narrator says about the Singapore river and all of us are expected to write an essay for her about the Singapore river. then some of us said that bring us to take the cruise is an excuse making us write an essay for her is her real motive !!!
after the 30 minutes cruise we walked quite a long distance to Clark Que mrt and headed to orchard. we were told to read books at borders and i picked a book about German history " Medical Killing and the phychology of genocide , the Nazi doctor" it was rather disturbing and there were some parts saying that people who are killers, rapist or those who have mental disorders must be sterilised or gone through ligation to prevent the breeding of the bad breed.......
i was reading just the first chapter and almost one and a half hour was gone. it was about six at that time so we were told to go home to have our dinner ....... and my tuition teacher still reminded me that tuition resumes next week and she will start teaching us A maths and other sec 3 stuff

stupid june holiday

2008-06-12T12:46:00.000-07:00

well it has been some time since i have updated it .....
many events had happened lately and i really feel very sick and tired of it ......
many things really happened and i realised that every one was busier than usual my mom had to work for very long hours due to excessive meetings and clients to meet. Suddenly i had a sudden feeling that i never felt before that i felt very sad and my heart felt pain as i saw how my mom worked. due to her packed schedule she still kept her friday and sunday evening's to at least have a dinner with me and today ? she fell sick and had to see a doctor. I can see that my mother is really exhausted as i saw her having the urge to sleep . ?But i realised that my mother still could not sleep peacefully as her phone continues to ring while she was trying to get some rest. My grand uncle on the other hand, was admitted to hospital a week ago and i believe that every one was very worried for him. i can tell that my cousin really cared for him but he is also very hardworking. from what i heard from my grand parents they told me that if i were to visit my grand uncle, i would have seen lots of books...
if it was my sister, she would take it as a opportunity to not do any homework . so my cousin family is again busy taking care of my grand uncle and the adults would be busy with their work and the children would be busy with their studies..
another busy man which i also cared the most is my uncle (mom's side) i again also heard it from my grand parents that he would need to go to either France or dunno where cause i'm not very sure too... he would need to leave singapore for more than 10 days then he still wants to accompany me with my sis to see fireflies as we did not see it before !
i am very pleased that my grand parent's are fine as i heard that the RCC that they joined has alot of activities for them as they could exercise on proper equipments and something that i would never imagine ! they are taking up computer course !
as for me the past week's four days belong to the school four days belong to my tuition one - two days belong to the projects which are on hand !
but for the past two weeks life was miserable to me as i could not sleep at all ! is something really wrong with me ???? i started to lose my appetite a few days ago and sleepless nights are really a total torture to me..... sometimes i really wonder can i take sleeping pills although my brain can take it by not sleeping but my eye cant ! my eyes are tired and dry but i just cant sleep most some times i could only fell asleep at 7:15 am and some times 5 am .....
what is it that i lack ? that make me unable to sleep ? it cant be games as i am not addicted to them !!!! 100% not DRUGS ??? drama series ? no ??? 7 pm to 10 pm series are getting boring !!! why i just cant get some sleep !!! then when my brain finally cant take it any more, i will just sleep from afternoon till next morning then i will get sleepless nights again .......
gosh some one help me its already 4:34 and i still cant sleep HELP !!!!

Boring Day

2008-05-15T08:00:00.000-07:00

haiz sianz lars 2dae go to ICA there to do my passport
aiyoz .... my passport never go renew le plus expired for almost 3 months...
sianz on wensday then can get back my passport
wa laos lor so long plus pay almost close to $$$80
gosh so expensive
by the way ... i have juz change the blog skins and i hope that it is nice
i know that it is a little girlish but aiya damm hard to find this is the nicest one
so boh bian ..
Erm if any one know's how to do cbox and have the code in xml format
please give me so that there will be a cbox
so sianz
haiz
So Finally holiday coming liaos
but got prefect camp sia and i dun feel like going...
sianz
now i doing the compo sia but ms li really quite bias lors
me and rizudin need hand in the compo
then she promise rizudin that she will give no lesser than 16 if it is a proper piece of work
i so pissed off lors
than i say woah ms li u so bias why i dun hav sia
den she like say why u wan compare
i was like i dun care lars i oso wan like mark at least 16 if proper piece of work
then Qing Xuan go ka jiao was like not fair lars
like that next time i dun wan do any of the assignments
then down there kao peh and like emo emo like tat
i hate it when he tell me playing dota is got no future one
so u dun play lars
i than bu shuang already .....
todae art miss heng make us draw some kind of stuff
knn like after exam cannot like no need draw any thing like tat mehz let us do for holiday home work will die arr ??

sianz today so lucky sia

2008-05-14T06:17:00.000-07:00

YEA YEA !!! today rain i so happy !!! No need to run 2.4km. muahahahaha
to bad larhs ... today i can pass my standing broad jump. plus mr leong still
keep saying Ehh... jump together with two legs lars ... i was like wtf ?? knn
sia, i try 2 times still fail. the most funny part hors is when mr leong folo me
scratch the head.. Sianz actually today nth much happen also .. oh ya today
mdm rina stress that we muz start our research for the science thing .. woah
Suat Ying like so kang chiong like tat so worried and say when u can arrs ?
I was like now who not free sia? exams juz over only mahs rite ?? OHH yea
one more thing make me more happy tomorow i can start to play maple private
server sia so shiok kill 2 snail then lvl 10
sianz sianz sianz sianz
seriously nth to say much about todae

ohh ya ya ya remembered sth todae the d&t lesson , was like so easy to gain marks lor
anyhow paste 10 pictures then get 6 marks.. haiz to bad mr toh go back NIE for further
training.

哎呀，其实呢，今天没什么好写的。。。所以我就写到这边！！！哈哈哈。
sianz 要等到新期天在能看翻滚把！蛋炒饭。。

UNLUCKY DAY - 一个倒霉的一天

2008-05-13T08:57:00.000-07:00

God damm it. who ever reads this blog please add my msn roysng_94@hotmail.com.
i seriously need your help with the html and the flash box or cbox.
they want it to be in xml format but as most people knows , i am a computer noob so please dun balme me !!!
ka nah sai , 2 dae damm suay sia, take bus bus suddenly on break down and on fire . go home the lift spoil sia . sianz today really unlucky day.
today the 804 bus suddenly have alot of smoke come out and when it enters the bus
woah i tell you, i really sucks in there it was so smelly. if i did not remember wrongly, i think roshan and some of my seniors were in that bus too !!
then when reach home went to sleep cause really arr so tired.
sighs wonder how the sec 1 prefect interview go today sia.... sorry lahs angela is not that i dun wan to help out but from my past year experience, i can confirm say that it is going to be a waste of time. for me i rather go home and play the computer.
so sianz i still thought that today will have tuition but call mrs yong teacher never answer my call the n ask zheng shun he say cannot be what why teacher so long never call back. He looks very worried and wonder if something had happen. woah really arr this boy really care for teacher sia. so gan chiong and run to teacher house without me.
As for me, as most people know i sure cannot run one so i try my best to chiong there lors.. in the end is teacher handphone in her bedroom..
so in the end never go tuition.
then went home started to on my com WORST THING IS SUDDENLY I CANNOT HOST DOTA sia suay again luckly got arya to help me fix those problems.

Sianz Sianz again Tml got P.E. i dun even feel like going for P.E lessons lors but boh bian lah ...
the most suffer for another 1 hours.
omg GOSH how can i forget tml D&T SHIT i have not done my mind map yet .....
sianz lahs tomorow then go school do,
So today i played about 3-4 matches in the end i lost all the game .. (can't believe it) sianz almost 3 weeks never play my skills all rusty already.

经天我真倒霉！不知道为什么，下课后想回家。但在半路上，那个巴士突然冒起烟来。说起来还蛮可怕的。那么又那么巧，回到家的是后电梯又坏了。你说那里一天那么多的巧合呢？
真是的。。。但是我还有一点能让我开心起来是我的历史，英文，literature,和science都及格。我还蛮怕我会不及格。哎呀我真是糊涂呀！！！我为什么没有把巴士的情形给录下来呢？？？
算了。哎呀，时间不早了，我也该去睡了。好了今天我就写到这里把！

我今天的愿望：“一. 我希望我的华文水平能提高。
二. 我希望我明天不会那么倒霉。

第一只写华文的日记。

2008-05-12T07:26:00.000-07:00

Hello long time no update already.

sianz i think i am going to fail my chinese already lahs ...

sianz so from now on, my blog will be in Chinese so sorrie....

ok now chinese text starts.

12日5月2008年晴天
今天我拿回了我的考卷。觉得很伤心，我很担心我会不及格。天啊！我的老师说我会不及格是因为我的第一项目拿了7分所以我才不及格。幸好我的英文的paper 1 及格拿了31分。我的老师还认为我不会拿得那么高分。我也觉得很开心。我的老师说只要我努力，每一个礼拜至少写一的日记，我的华文应该会进步。虽然，我知道我不振么认识字，但是我认为，只要我读多一点故事书，我的华文一定会经部。俗语说得好：“失败是成功之母”和“天下无难事，只把有心人”我现在要利用这个机会来跟那些读我的blog说慎不好意思，因为如果我没说错的话，这里的文字一定有错字或是同影字所以你读的时候邮电部顺。经多多包含。谢谢。

History book cover !

2008-01-14T06:39:00.000-08:00

sianz
muz do history book cover
muz do it relating (landmarks and people)
but dont know how sia..
sianz
die die die die !!! now then printer no ink
shit 2 moro how to hand in sia
haiz
sianz
2 dae is such a boring day ..
hms nth much to say actually
but pls do not go to my old blog the www.roy-memories.blogspot.com ok
go to this one www.roys-memories.blogspot.com
well, sianz again,
tomorrow see what ms chong will say ...